sorry kee ian..

sorry kee ian about yesterday..
i'm not purposely..
i dunno how to explain about wat am i thinking..
bec after take my result i ask u get how many a..
u get 5..jun get 6..qui han get 5..tat hong get 6...woon them all get full a...
but my result ..
only get 3a..
i really sad..
hard to face it...
u all happy..
but i'm sad
i scared will make u all sad...
so i did not tell u about my result n my feeling..
hong n jun personal also write that..
call me dun sad..
i ad control myself...
but actually i cnt do it..
i know my result already as a matter of fact...
but i really cnt trust it..
if i tell u..
u just will answer me..
it's already over..
i know..
pmr not to represent my future..
spm can gambateh agn..
this all i also know..
but i very care my result....
sad....
i'm not a perfect friend..
and i sad not only because i cnt reach my target..
i'm so dissapointed...
bec i hope me can same like u all..
can follow all of ur de step..
n i hope i can win my sis..
bec she too proud..
i'm suppose tis time can tell my sister..
no tuition also can get 4a..
but..
actually i cnt do it..
i'm so sorry..
i just need to calm down..
hope u won't blame me...
n thank you..
at this holiday..
u nvr give up n say gud nitez to me everynitez...
thank you..
u is my brother..
forever..
but tis time i'm did wrong..
i should tell u..
but i did not do it..
maybe between me n u all de distance very far..
i'm so sorry...

lastly i still choosing to endure u...

i dunno how to face u..
last time u tell jun u can't be real to me..
since that time..
since u say me copy cat..
since u affected me when exam...
i'm thinking about that ..
is u really is my friend..
since that day i say back u..
i'm feel u start to say me...
or write in ur blog about me..
fashion show..
i feel happy..
bec jun is winning..
i really happy..
bec my friend never get win..
when u all stay in bilik jahitan..
i help u go bilik guru borrow the shoes..
u never wear..
nvm..
after fashion show..
u get angry..
n i call u gv back the shoes to pn ong..
wat is ur respond?
straight go away n never reply me..
i already very unhappy...
so..
i n wei hong..
go bilik guru n put back the shoes..
can i ask did u say any thing to me?
when i back class..
dunno where u go..
then i sit together wit wei hong them..
when u come back from outside..
u never talk wit me also..
i wrong i wrong..
in your life just u right..
anyone is wrong..
cnt near ur darling..
he is the most important in ur life..
u is my best friend..
but keep hurt me ..
agn...agn...agn..
me n jun difference..
rite..
she is the person who will find u talk ur problem..
i won't..
i no dare to do it..
bec u is sitting beside of me...
i endure it...
i dun wan say out anything .
i dun wan hurt u..
bec if i say out..
really will hurt u many..
so until today i still choosing to endure u..
dun wan say out..

dun try to affected me

dun try to affected me..
again ...
when i feel suffer n no confidence..
u write in ur blog n make me more sad n make me no more confidence...
i late sleep for doing note n do revision..
but u say me copy u...
why u must attack my confidence leh..
u noe i dun hv copy u..
u noe i got tis idea already..
u know de...
now u tell i copy u..
izit u sengaja?
stop la..why u must do tat to hurt me..
i'm stop doing sejarah..
bec of u...
izit i wan say u copy my idea also?
i dun hv do tat..
i also dun hv say back u...
i dun wan affected u..
i hope i can same like jun..
she cheat herself to say sorry to u..
i can't do tat...
if i do tat i just feel i lie myself only ..
n cnt change anything..
just make my mood more bad...
tis week i cnt finish my sej revision..
when i reading tat book..
i will thinking of u..
T.T..
many people say u sengaja one u sengaja one...
i dunno why u do tat...
i won't revenge u..
bec our attitude are different..
so pls dun do tat again..
if u continue to force me..
maybe got 1 day i will scold u n won't talking wit u anymore..
pls esteem urself..
n esteem us...
if not u will lost all ur best friend..
n the person who love u..
maybe u dun care alone..
bec when u alone u also won't think tat is wrong like last time..
we tired..
u dun care..
why we care u alone last time..
izit last time 4give u is a wrong decide?
izit last time dun hv tell all ur problem let u noe is wrong decide?
izit i patient is wrong decide?
i dun wan find the answer n stop to thinking of u..
try dun care wat u saying..
but i cnt do tat..
bec u is my friend..
but u change my notion...
feel if u is my friend..
u won't do that..
if u is my friend..
u won't choose the time that i need people care to try to attack me..
if u is my friend..
u won't hurt me..
if u is my friend..
u will support me..
but u already hurt me..
after pmr..
u will me actually u lost all..
n if u really get a good result u also won't be happy ..
bec u do tat to ur friend..
i say really de..
u will feel it..
jun n me..
never think wan hurt u..
we won't do that...

think urself..pls

today view ur blog...
say u hate 3 dahlia...
izit u so hate?
wei hong?
he not ur best friend?..
he dun hv support u?
he is a one who support u when u feel suffer..
sometime he know de thing i also dunno..
why u hate..
the reason is no one help u?
or no one support u when u quarell wit us?
or u think tat kee ian is ignore u?
last time u say..
in ur life got 2 important person..
one is kee ian ..
one is qui han..
actually u dun hv say i already noe..
u just will say people copy u..
i dunno who is the person...
but i just can tell u..
dun think people is copying u..
see urself..
actually u is saying urself...
be4 i view ur blog i will thinking ...
after i view ur blog..
will affected me to do revision?
but really affected me...
i care of u ...
but u everytime hurt me..
i did not like to hurt u..
i dun hv tell u about ur problem..
last time when i say u just say dun hv dun hv..
i dun wan ask agn..
bec i noe u won't think tat is wrong..
u change back already..
ur attitude bad again..
i open tis blog ..
i dun hv let u see..
bec i care ur feeling to say tis..
fashion show...
all people agree join teacher ..
just u..
did not like tis..
all people agree..
just u did not wan..
izit wan all people follow u?
u say me..
did i got say back u wat?!!!
the answer is no!
wat u did ..
i dun hv say back u!!
but that no mean i dun care
!!!
yes..be4 i dun care..
but u everytime like tat now u writting in ur blog...
wat la..
can u ask all people beside of u ?
wat they thinking?
chi hao?
one of the person...
when quarrel wit us..
he teman u n talk wit u..
but u?
ask wat he feeling la..
everytime feel all people did bad to u..
but u never think wat u did to people..
i dunno why u change until like tat at this year...
maybe stress?
i also stress..did i nid same wit u?
scold people without reason?
say people never think myself got wrong?
if i'm u..
i won't hurt my friend who good to me..
bec i very thank them because they care me when i feel suffer..
i won't did bad to them..
bec i treasure our friendship..
i feel warm..
when my friend alway good to me..
bec i think if u good to them ..
them also will good to u..
but u not same..
i good to u..
but u try to hurt me..
sad..
enough la...
i dunno u is sengaja to affected me or wat..
u like la...

stop doing tat

2 more week..
pmr is coming..
today i cannot focus in study..
because i'm keep thinking about wat kai ru saying..
dunno why suddenly think about that..
i'm feel uncomfortable n cnt forget about it...
i dunno why just a bit thing only..
then already affected my confidence n cnt concentrate on study..
i dunno why i so care lo..
jun say dun care 1st bec pmr is coming soon..
but tuesday ...
kai ru say sej no nid do nota one n just read buku teks enuf..
but she do nota also...
when i read bab 1 she say no nid read one..
n call me read another bab..
but she read bab 1 also...
dunno why la..
maybe is i sensitive or wat...
since kairu tell jun tat day..
n tell the lie ..
make misunderstanding between me n wei hong..
n make me did not trust wei hong anymore..
i dunno why she wan do tat...
i try to forget about it..
but really cnt do tat..
when i study ..n suddenly thinking about tat..
really cnt focus already...
one of the way tat can forget it is hurt my hand..
pls la..
if u noe a bit thing tat already can affected me..
then please dun do tat...
dun make me sad or wat..
n i tell u..
i never jealous ur result..
i never thinking about that..
i won't do tat to my friend ..
n dun make something out of nothing..
i hate people do tat..
dun make misunderstanding between me or jun or who..
stop do tat..
i'm not a person like tat..
trust or no trust tat is ur choice..
i care ur feeling n dun wan affected u ..
but please thinking about me..
ur friend...
when i care a person..
if she hurt me..
i really will sad ..
today my cousin comes my house...
she talk wit mw about myself.
she ask me why face look like patient..
then i tell her maybe i no enuf sleeping..
then she noe i must read be4 sleep..
if not i will cry..
she say i gv myself too many pressure already..
she call me rest more 1st..
watever la..
now i wan concentrate on study n try dun hurt myself...
hope i can do tat..